8.22.2005

12:06 AM

OH DONT YOU PUT ME ON THE BACKBURNER

lately, ive let things slide a little too far. i stopped being as tidy. my room is more and more disasterous every day and its really starting to get to me. i just dont feel the need to clean it since im leaving in six days. yeah thats right, six days. i cant wait to leave. im so sick of waiting for it to come, i just want the day to be here and i just want to start school. its not that i havent been having fun here; ive had some pretty magnificent times this summer. im just so anxious to see what its like, the classes, the living in a dorm and the things to do out in rochester, not to mention having even more freedom. the anticipation is keeping me up at night. yeah, im losing sleep over this but its alright because i dont really need sleep anyways.
anyway, i need to start the final packing, i need to figure out what it is already that i have, and i need to organize. i still need more clothes, but im not sure what yet (some of you may think i dont need any more clothes, but youre fucking dead wrong!!!!!). it was annoying trying to figure out what to buy, so, i decided to wait until later. im not a fan of the jeans/hoodie/flip-flop look that ive heard college girls do, but i guess it doesnt really matter anymore. it sounds stupid, but im there for the learning, not to make a fashion satement. soo, bring on the flip flops! hahaha!

 LETS GET SOME "HOME-DOGS" SO WE CAN LOOK COOL WHEN WE DANCE AND ALWAYS HAVE BACKUP.

p.s. who wants to go to canada on my birthday?


with everyone lost
the battle is won
with all these things
that i have done

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contemplated existance at 12:06 AM

8.11.2005

7:50 PM

oh. my. god.

briantaytayolay: hey
usagioop: what?
briantaytayolay: i kant decide what to eat
briantaytayolay: help!!!!!
usagioop: *can't
usagioop: and you want sushi
briantaytayolay: :'(
briantaytayolay: yesh but i dont know where to buy it around here
usagioop: well what do you want, I'm psychic; not Mapquest
briantaytayolay: lol
briantaytayolay: i dunno
briantaytayolay: think of somthing
briantaytayolay: yay idea : dun du du dun ill order a pizza
briantaytayolay: uhh o i dont know how tho mi parents usually do it for me
usagioop: you... dont know how to order a pizza...
briantaytayolay: uhh no y would i say i dont if i do??
usagioop: you. don't know. how to order. a pizza.
briantaytayolays: NO! y do u ask the same thing???
usagioop: that...
usagioop: that is the most moronic thing ive ever heard
briantaytayolay: aw fuck u
briantaytayolay: so do u know how or not
usagioop: you look for dominos or something in the phone book. use this nifty thing i like to call a phone to order a small medium or large pizza with whatever you want on it, give them your address and then pay them when they get there.
usagioop: its not rocket science
briantaytayolay: ya but whats the # i dont use fone books
usagioop: uhhh
usagioop: i live in williamson
usagioop: you live in pemberton
briantaytayolay: so?
usagioop: the numbers. theyre different.
briantaytayolay: find the pemberton fone book
usagioop: i dont have the pemberton phone book, i live in williamson


at first i thought he was high, but it turns out brians 13 yr old brother stayed the weekend with him, thus this hilarious racking of my nerves.

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contemplated existance at 7:50 PM

8.04.2005

12:40 AM

who said that i wasnt right? ive lived for years without a life. dont have a soul on my side. still ridiculed despite how hard that i have tried. dont take me under your wing, i dont need a hand, dont need anything. ive got a roof over my head as if id rather be alone with me instead. close yet far. drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are. and ill tip my hat to those who cant believe its me. and i never never never ever wanted this to be. i can hear the sounds of the city. sunrise and set are the same to me. a hesitating pulse is good company, and my reflection offers no apology...close yet far. drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are. and ill think of days when there was something to believe. and i never never never ever wanted this to be...

so ive basically just been hearing about heartbreak this past week. rach told me she couldnt sleep or eat, crazy cause thats how i was feeling last week. though i couldnt cry for some reason, even when i thought about him with her. maybe it wasnt heartbreak afterall. cause im pretty mellow right now. i think im going to be ok, though i feel like im missing a giant piece of something. i trusted him so much and we used to talk for hours. but no more remenissing, time to watch movies and get fat.

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contemplated existance at 12:40 AM
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